NaPoWriMo 2017. 1/04/2017
It’s not about how your hair bounces as
beads of sweat trickle down
your forehead while you dance,
or the way your rhythmic footwork seems like you’ve been tap dancing
on my heart the entire time,
crushing it with your heel,
then gently tip toeing, testing the waters,
suddenly bending down to rip it apart.
It’s not about how you’re always around
casually conversing as you sip coffee,
or the perfect smile that shows up,
lighting up your face, making
your eyes sparkle with delight.
It’s not about how your presence is
felt, in those you love, in their
chatter and mannerisms,
even in your absence.
It’s not about the happiness
felt at seeing you,
or hearing your voice
after a long, hard day;
and the slightly faster beating
of my heart at seeing
that sparkly, perfect smile.
Those feelings are just stuffed
to the bottom drawer of my heart,
desperately wanting to be ignored,
It’s about longing to be with you,
and knowing that’s its not
happening anytime soon.
It’s about promises to
clean out the bottom drawer,
a bit by bit,
just not now.